Before I start anything, everyone who's reading this, please bear in mind that this is a blog. This is my blog. What I'm about to write is my personal opinion. And to my family, especially my dearest mum, I don't mean to offend anyone. I just think that it is not wrong to voice out.
Incident 1
Bro: Do you want to use the laptop? Since Zhen went to UK and noone's using it..
Fun: No. I don't want to borrow, want then give. In case later using half way, I accidentally see Zhen's (xxx)..
*(xxx): something too private to post it here.
Of course, it is what I heard. The percentage of it being true is not 100. Oh, and for those of you who are already having question marks above your head. Let me explain.. My cousin sister is temporarily staying in my house. She often argues with my brother over my sister's laptop, since my sis is in UK or wherever she is now.. My brother thinks that he should be the one who's taking control over the laptop, while my cousin thinks that she should temporarily owns the laptop because my sis is not using it.
Okay, yee yee, if you're reading this, and you think that it is very unfair for her, think twice. Think from everyone's point of view.
I do not need to tell everything here, but what happened today is the whole reason why the hell am I posting this.
For some reason, my mum and my brother argued about the laptop again. Mum was asking bro to lend it to my cousin, and without a doubt, he refused. Because she never return it after borrowing, and then brought it out for her friends to use.. When my brother asked it back from her, she refused to return as she claimed that she needed it later. And when my brother warned her to be careful while using my uncle's laptop, she raised her voice and scolded my brother, and somehow, everyone there (except my aunt, including my own mother) was supporting her and asking my brother to shut up, and she still ended up crying. So yea, my brother refused to lend it to her.
Because my brother was very mad, so he posted "define 'borrow', 'return' and 'PC = personal computer'" on facebook, and tagged my sis, my cousin and my aunt and I. And they ended up quarrelling on facebook. =.= She sounded so confident and strong on facebook, saying that she has plenty of time to entertain them.. At the same time, she called home and complain to my mum. Of course, my mother supported her again, and went up to my brother's room, and started screeeeaming at my brother. My cousin even complaint to my aunt, and my aunt called all the way from Singapore to talk to my brother. Asking my brother to stop all the nonsense, and saying my cousin not dare to come home anymore.. *roll eyes*
After dinner, and after the phone call with my aunt, my mum came and talk to me, and we ended up arguing. Because I said that she is biased, but she denied. I was only telling the truth, and what I feel and think. My mum adores her niece more than her own kids. But I don't know who comes first between my elder sister and my cousin sister. Anyway, whenever there's an argument with any of us, my mum will surely side her, though my mum said that she doesn't side anyone. (which means she can't choose between her kid and her niece) Even the time when Fun argued with gor in MK, my mother asked my bro to stop. Why can't she ask my cousin to stop? Why can't she ask the elder one not to argue with the younger one? Because my mother is biased. Well, of course a small part me thinks that my mum told my brother to stop because she wanted her own kid to behave, she wanted her own kid to be a better person. But there is still a very strong voice telling me that my mum loves her more than us. Yea, she is very pitiful because she doesn't have a laptop. So?
Need more examples? My cousin was complaining that she didn't have enough money to hang out with friends, and I was very s-h-o-c-k-e-d when I heard my mum said, "go la.. guai la.. go and enjoy la.. I give you money lo.." I was like, whaatt the hellll. But of course, she didn't accept my mum's offer if I'm not mistaken. My mother never offered me money to go out. She would always ask me to stay at home.
My mum helped her wash her clothes because my mum didn't want her to be so tired, but she scolded my mum. She said that, she doesn't want my mum to wash her clothes because she's afraid of thunder strike. So.. scolding my mum is right?
My father asked her to park her car again in other spot, and she scolded my father. Ohh, not in front of my dad of course. She wouldn't dare to. Direct translate.. "Fuck his mother's smelly pussy, always ask me to park here park there. Don't park people's place la, not good la.. Not his house also.." Yes yes, you did not park in his house, but you are staying in his house. Show some respect.
Still, everyone seems to support her so much, and thinks that it is all my brother's fault. He is stingy. He doesn't like sharing. He doesn't like people using his laptop.. Which is why I bought my own laptop. Righhhht. Let me explain why.. My brother seriously is very selfish when it comes to computers, but it is only one of the reasons why I decided to buy a laptop. Mainly is because I know that my aunt/ uncle will never give me a laptop, like how they gave one to my sister because she needed it for college. Ha-ha. It's an old one though. And I know that my parents will never buy me a laptop. So why not buy myself a personal notebook when I still had income? Btw, xx paid for it too. =) So it's actually ours, not mine.
Plus, I did not make the whole house unhappy because of me. And mum said that she's happy I'm so understanding. =) I did not ask for a car, I did not ask for expensive college.. But, what did I get in the end? Nothing. I thought well mannered children and good kids always get what they want. Or at least, they get rewards. So my sis get to go to overseas because she's good in studies? Okay, fine, acceptable. She can go travel during her study week. She can go to London, she can go to Manchester, she can go to Europe.. And sent her more money because she was worried she won't have enough. And you people used to buy her latest handphones when she was young. But what about bro? He gets whatever he wants because he has a dick? Sent him to a good school because he asked for it. Bought him a personal laptop which he was supposed to share. And bought him so many sets of lego.. And you placed me in that dumb school where the teachers are like shit. I only had one damn barbie doll because I cried nonstop. And mindy always get to play the computer, go to school trips, snacks and that freaking apple tree gadget thingy though she did not behave.
Okay okay, so I am understanding and frugal. I never ask my parents for anything because I know that it's not easy to earn money. And it is definitely a waste of money to buy something you don't need. Still, I always get nothing in the end. I get objections when I started dating, while sis's boyfriend is like the best guy in the world. Get scoldings when I buy new clothes, new handbags and new shoes with my own money, while they just get whatever they ask for using your money. Gave a credit card to sis because she needs it for petrol and "emergency", while you don't trust me enough with a credit card and I had to issue myself one.
When I came back just now, I saw my mum dashing down the staircase, because my cousin wasn't feeling well and she was vomiting. At least that's why my sister told me. My mum looked so worried and nonstop telling her to see a doctor. Saying that her heart is aching seeing her like that.. Holding her hand begging her to see a doctor. Get an injection, or even send her to the hospital.. And my cousin sister nonstop crying and complaining that her head is really really pain, and she puked a lot.. Finally, my mum managed to get her out of the house, and drove her to a clinic. And I don't remember my mum doing this to us. She would just ask us to look for the medicine in the drawer and sleep early. And starting scolding about playing computer till late night and stuff.. Or better, she would get us some meds and a glass of water, and tell us to rest earlier. And I keep telling myself, "Okay.. Maybe it's because we did not cry.. Or maybe it's because our conditions weren't that bad. Mum still loves us more.." But I just can't force myself to believe it when all her actions show otherwise.
Let's change the situation.. Assume that I was the one who was feeling sick, and I was crying out loud. What my aunt can do is to get me some meds and put me in bed, and ask me to keep quiet because someone is sleeping. And that's what an aunt would do.
After all the things my mum did to you, you still have the face to say that my mum doesn't love you and doesn't care about you at all? Funny. She treats you almost better than her own children. And it's not like you give her money every month for raising you up. You take things for granted. This post can go on and on, but I think I should stop. No hard feelings.
Fun jie jie, if you ever come across this, I'm sorry if I offended you. But I think you'll be too busy with facebook..
Mum, I don't think you'll ever see this unless someone order you to read it. So, if you're reading this, I'm sorry too. But this is what I think. Frankly, you make me feel like not talking to you whenever you treat her so well. Okay, sorry. And I know you don't like it whenever gor ask for something, still, you'll fulfill his wants. And I know that you're upset whenever we argue, but I am upset too that you're biased.
Yee yee, you'll probably read this. I really don't understand why you and mum treat her sooo well. Are you guys trying to tell us that having 2 aunts is better than having a mum? I'm sorry too that I've upset you, but don't comment much, because Rach gets her way all the time too.
